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holidays are here!!! yippie !! but things are quite the oppisite for the SPM and STPM ppl, pray that you guys will try your best and leave the rest to God!! yah, so our anual class party was on monday !! yay!! thanks Jiale for opening up the house for a bunch of crazy girls like our class. i really enjoy the time with friends, cutting up the odd shaped watermelon, cutting and eating the guava at the same time.. haha, the preparation itself was GREAT! thank God for 3(1). all my friends started coming about 6.30 and by 7.45, everybody was already eating and laughing and making a whole lot of noise !! haha, i loved the noisiness and laughter, taking thousands and thousands of pictures of practically everything we did!! haha, that night i was so stuffed with not just food but also with the joy that my class brought to me. this year might be the last year we have a class party like this man... next year many of us will be going to different streams, arts or science. after 3 years of studying in secondary life, studying with all of you in class was a great joy and blessing. words can't describe how much you guys mean to me, and for being there all the time, thank you. 16 november would be a day that i will always remember, it may seem to be just any other class party or just eating and taking picture, but the true substance of the whole night was the fellowship and unity our class has, thank you !!! Thank you Father for a class such as 3(1).. Labels: of cameras and food
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so some ask me : '' so how has life been ?? '' hmmm, actually quite busy, at one period very tired, really really worn out and felt very drained... i had so many responsibilities on my hands that i couldn't carry it, it became too heavy for a fragile heart such as mine.. haha, but that was the problem, JOAN was too weak too carry it, i had forgotten to share my burden with God, forgotten to lay it all down at His feet, forgotten to trust and have faith in the God that saved me... how stupid of me to forget that basic truth that was all along beside me.. =) nevertheless, i thank God so much for opening my eyes to see lack of faith..and just today God showed me the greatest of faith in a child. We had guest over for dinner and after that i played with their kids while they had a meeting. while we were having ice-cream and talking, i asked Devian a question '' then do you carry an inhaler everywhere you go since you have asthma ?? '' his answer was simple and yet the depth of its meaning is beyond my understanding. He said '' i walk by faith ''. WOW i was like ...stunned. literally amazed by God and His hand over this child. Here i was, at least 5 years older then he and yet his faith in God stretches so far beyond my little faith. i am amazed by you Lord. Labels: i walk by faith not by sight
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have you ever been looked down on ?? ever felt that horrible loneliness that just haunts you ?? do you know what it feels like to be laughed at ?? i always knew it was really hurtful for one especially my age, but i didn't really understand how it felt till just now.. ARGH !!! it felt horrible!! erk, adding to that i felt so lonely there just now, running and waving my racket amongst unfamiliar faces, jogging round the court many many times without a physical someone i can call friend beside me, just God and me. but the thing is, in these situations, i dun want to be lonely, in these situations, loneliness haunts me like a nightmare i can't escape.. running to-and-fro the court and training was fun, it was what i wanted to do, but i wish i had a friend be waiting at the bench after my turn was over, to smile at me and say '' jia you ! '' or to just sit beside me. i didn't get that chance, instead, everytime my turn was over, i walked back to a bench sitted by a bunch of stuck-up boys laughing at me, whispering dunno what and staring at me with faces that didn't even have a trace of friendliness on it... at one point i tried to hear what they were saying while it was my turn to play, they weren't talking very loud but i managed to get a few chunks of words.. stupid of me to try to hear what they were saying, no point anyway, i ended up more hurt than ever, stupid me !! but at least i learned something, maybe God has a plan for me through this to touch their lives or perhaps change mine. who knows, maybe ??
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i remember those sweet sweet memories with you those times where you took my hand the moments where you took me away far away from my troubles, far from this world into a secret place only you and i knew i remember the wonderful things you showed me the stories you told me before i slept the scene of the dance the day i sang to you our song i remember the time i fell i came back to you crying i fell at your feet by your mercy and grace you hugged me you said " child, stand up again " those beautiful moments still float in my head those memories of you and me shall always be with me but someone once said the higher you climb the lower you fall so true so so true look where i am now i come back to you like a lost sheep returning to the shepherd i try but my sinful self pulls me deeper into the pit i tried but failed yet again again and again until i want to give up but your word says keep on knocking and you will open the door keep on asking and you will answer in James you taught me to ask with faith and you would gladly give to me whatever i ask for i am reminded of the stories of faith the heroes you called your friends the great people you called " men after your own heart " i ask of you now i dun want to BE those people i want to be unique like nobody you ever knew i ask that you answer my prayer i want to be in the Holy of holies to see you heart to heart heartbeat to heartbeat take my hand cleanse me and make me clean again i'm in the deepest of pits i've ever been it feels horrible and lonely would you forgive me ?? drawing near to you again i pray that you answer me i pray that you hear my silent cry the cry that sounds louder that any other that i've experienced faith is believing the unseen i believe that you WILL answer me thy will be done in my life amen Labels: asking
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pmr is over !!!!!!! hahahaha... was almost jumping in my exam chair at the last paper !!! argh!! yes, that feeling of satisfaction!! i know i've given it my all... i give it all to you Father, all to you!!! =)hm... i actually dunno what to say here anymore , so many stuffys to do .. all the better ! can keep me occupied and in line, so i won't waste my time. praise God Labels: wow
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The great Francis of Asissi once said : " Welcome, sister death ! " i can't express how much i love him but i really really do. All the tears and prayers repeat in my head again and again, the lyrics of his song ring in my ears.. i couldn't help but cry, i was scared. i wasn't scared of death, but of what God told me.. yet again, HE reminded me that ah kong is saved, even if nobody saw it, even if nobody believes me, still i will have faith to BELIEVE that God has brought him home.. when i reached home, i stood at ah kong's room door, gazing into the empty room, trying to take it all in. How i wished i could say " hi ah kong, i'm home. " .. i normally don't have much to say to him but in my heart i was bursting with words to say, i loved him so much. but after a while, worries and worries flooded my head, thinking over and over again about what was to happen now .. i was feeling scared of all that was about to happen , but then a verse came to my mind : " He who is in us is far greater than who is against us. " Death isn't something to fear but it is something that is closer than we think Death is merely on earth merely a transition to a better place or perhaps worse Death for those who know the Lord it is not something to mourn or grieve about instead it is something to celebrate for we are going HOME nevertheless Father my prayer is this that this one death will bring this family to you. AMEN. Labels: i'm ok
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i need someone to hold that someone is YOU YOU amen
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joan lee xing ern , loves God and is loving every minute i spend with Him.. loves designing,singing,playing the piano and praying... God is the king of my heart and my life and He will always be.. Memories
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